selling your soul, time and again

I dreaded the idea of attending yesterday's special session. After last monday's hoopla over the proposed resolution that would strip the vice mayor of all her key personnel in the Sangguniang Bayan, which led to her walk out, I had to literally force myself to attend yesterday's session. I had enough melodrama for the week, maybe the month even, and I knew that the topics for discussion would lead to nothing but more grief and heart ache.

So I was pleasantly surprised to realize that they didn't plan to push thru with it due to the advice of the municipal legal officer.

I know I am just delaying the inevitable, that somewhere down the road, I will be pushed to vote for something I don't believe in, something against my principles, something like this. At least the delay is allowing me to breathe again. So my mind vs. heart vote will have to be postponed for another day. I don't have to pick a side just yet. Yeah yeah, I know that I have already picked one but standing by my decision on which side to stand by is just soooo stressful.

It's just a matter of political survival and being able to face yourself at the end of the day. Tough choice. Maybe I was never meant to be in politics. Sad thought.

PS There is a rumor going around that I paid the Mayor P5 million, just to be part of his line up in the upcoming 2007 elections. Hahaha. If i had P5 million to give away, why pay someone so that I could be part of their political party, why not make my own? The stupidity of some rumors. Oh well...